How Surat Al-Baqarah Brought My Dreams to Life

Surah Al-Baqarah (The Cow) is the longest chapter of the Quran, containing 286 verses. Revealed in Madinah over a span of about 10 years starting from 622 C.E., it is a Madani surah that addresses the early Muslim community—guiding them on faith, law, and community-building, while often referencing the history of Bani Isra’il as lessons for believers.

Personally, I used to struggle with it. I found it long and complex. But the first time I read it fully was in July 2014—and that experience changed my life.

I remember texting my aunt, complaining about how difficult life felt—my father’s suffering, and my desperation to find a job to support my family.

She then added: Sometimes the change happens within those 40 days. Sometimes it comes months later. Just be sincere in your prayers, in how you live your life. Stay connected to God, stay away from sin as much as you can, and trust the process.

In July 2014, I committed to reading it daily while my parents took their afternoon nap. It took me 1–2 hours each day. I cried through my prayers, asking for the same thing over and over again.

Nothing happened during those 40 days… or so I thought.

On day 39, I had my second job interview.
On day 40, I received my first job offer—from the Environment Agency – Abu Dhabi.

I was grateful… but things at home were still painful. My father’s condition was worsening, and emotionally, I was struggling.

Then something unexpected happened. A colleague—an older, wiser woman—noticed something in me. I opened up to her, and she told me:

Mariam, you can help your father get his pension back.

I was shocked. I was 22, a fresh graduate, with no connections and not even able to drive. But somehow… she was right.

After four mentally exhausting months of searching, asking, and pushing forward, I found myself standing in front of the CEO of my father’s former workplace. I asked him directly:

“You dismissed my father unjustly in 2003. Why?”

They had no answer.

That moment led to justice for my father. I didn’t pursue legal action—I didn’t have the emotional capacity, and he was already nearing the end of his life. But he passed away with dignity, and with his rights restored. That, to me, was everything.

This time, I wanted something deeply personal. I used to dream of walking through thick fog—unable to see clearly, but knowing that at the end of it was my master’s degree.

In December 2017, I started reading Surat Al-Baqarah again.

Three months later, I was in New Zealand, attending my first day of my master’s program.

I had been rejected for sponsorship. My family did not support the idea. The only support I had was from my mother—and that was enough.

I went alone. And I made it.

This one… was a rollercoaster.

I began reading Surat Al-Baqarah again on November 11, 2023. At the time, my now-husband was struggling. His family refused to support our marriage. He was under immense financial pressure, carrying significant debt, and emotionally exhausted.

Everything pointed to this not working.

So in Ramadan 2024, I made a difficult decision—I cut off communication completely and focused on myself and my prayers.

Every day, I made the same du’a:
“God, if this man is good for me, my family, and my future, make it easy and bring him to me. If not, take him away and heal my heart.”

On April 5, 2024, my mother called me:
“Come home. Omar called. He wants to marry you.”

I rushed back, only to discover that my mother, Omar, and my uncles had been discussing everything behind the scenes.

Things were still complicated—almost impossible. But somehow, everything aligned.

We had only until April 22 to get married before my only brother left for military service for 11 months (he was basically the only one who can legally marry me).

And yet… everything fell into place.

I became a wife that day.

It took me time to process it all, but I was fortunate to have a husband who supported me and understood what I needed to find my footing in this new chapter of life.

What I’ve come to understand is that Surat Al-Baqarah was never just about getting what I asked for—it was about becoming the person who could receive it, carry it, and walk through it with faith. Sometimes my prayers were answered exactly as I hoped, and other times they were answered in ways I could have never planned. But in every single instance, something shifted within me first—my patience, my clarity, my strength. So if there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s this: keep showing up, keep asking, and trust that what is meant for you will find its way—at the right time, in the right form, and often in ways far greater than you imagined.

Living in New Zealand as an Arab Woman

My experience living in New Zealand between 2018 till 2021 was simply: Healing, Reviving & Incredible.

I come from a very traditional Emirati family with my 3 other siblings. We didn’t have the best childhood growing up, especially for me following a Traumatic event that happened to me at the age of 7, which resulted in severe depression for my mom & dad (especially my dad).

Unfortunately, the 90s in the UAE was mostly picture perfect. People were too focused on leading a prosperous, problem-free world. Seeing my dad’s pain growing year by year had only made me, my mom & siblings want to stand by his side, take on his foot steps & learn valuable life lessons most people learn at a later stage in their lives.

Fast-forward to October 2015, my dad passed away, and I was emotionally destroyed. A big part of me had died with him, and it drove me to change. I stopped painting & playing the piano, and I focused all of my energy learning about how I can be a better human being for planet earth & on learning different kinds of sports.

Growing up, I had a huge amount of interest in Animal-welfare and the vegan diet. I never enjoyed the taste of meat or the feeling cows milk gave my tummy. That bloating was ugh…. and it was until 2009 that I learnt about the word “vegan” and the ethics around our food consumption & how it impacts our health & the environment. However, I didn’t know how to convey the message my family. I was perceived as “pushy” “arrogant” & “thinking too highly about myself” simply because I refused to consume animal products. For me I just… didn’t want to be part of taking another living being’s soul. Moreover, I love animals so much, especially birds. My dad used to call me Little Birdie & say: “I’m afraid you might fly off to a faraway land while I’m around”.

Working for the Environment Agency – Abu Dhabi exposed me to many amazing people, and one person stood up the most was a fisheries manager from New Zealand. This was my first time hearing about a country named “New Zealand”. At the same time, I kept stumbling upon random viral videos from New Zealand on Youtube that exposed me to their culture, and I fell blindly in love. At the same time, I was doing my research, taking online courses on Environmental studies & sustainability. Luckily I was doing good enough. My mother had her doubts and used to say: “how I are you going to Convert yourself from being someone who only knew how to express herself through Drawing, painting & music, to using words to do so?” My mother and I never gotten along growing up, she had difficulty at understanding me for this very reason which gotten me into so much trouble. And it wasn’t until I was able to learn how to communicate my feelings & emotions in a way that helped her understand me in 2022 that we finally became best friends. So, when I told her that I WILL move to New Zealand and study my masters at Victoria University – Wellington (with a thesis research on vegan/vegetarian food choices for a better planet). I spoke to my family about it to get their advice and support but…

And a fire was ignited inside of me. There started my journey to move to New Zealand & do my masters degree in something I was insanely passionate about. Even when all odds were against me, somehow I was able to make it! I was lucky to somehow receive a sponsorship from my work that helped pay off my study fees and I left on the 3rd of March 2018. I made lots of incredible friends, people I consider family, I was able to buy a car there, race an IRONMAN 70.3, had a hip stress fracture that took 6 months to heal, I almost lost my life due to an on-set tonic-clonic seizures on the 3rd of June 2019, lived through COVID-19 alone, done lots of road trips around the North & South Islands, done the Great Walk of Waikaremoana (66km, 2100m elevation) in 3 days fully self-sufficient, and finally! received my Masters Degree with Merit!

My Masters Degree Thesis. MEnvStud

It’s about time that I go back to writing, I remember starting this website with my name as the domain in order to publicize myself as a full-time artist. However, life does work in miraculous ways doesn’t it?

I had been reading about the ethics of our food consumption patterns for as long as I remember. Still, my family and colleagues figured that my knowledge was unreliable since I didn’t have the “experience” to educate them about it. Therefore, in 2017, I decided to change my career and pursue my master’s in environmental studies. I was fortunate enough to get a sponsorship at Victoria University of Wellington.

Hope you enjoy reading it! https://researcharchive.vuw.ac.nz/xmlui/handle/10063/9390

The highest form of human excellence is to question oneself and others.

Socrates, 469–399 B

Abstract:

Over the past few decades, rising meat and dairy consumption have had increased environmental implications, ranging from soaring greenhouse gas emissions to river pollution in Aotearoa New Zealand. Recent studies suggest the importance of altering meat and dairy consumption attitudes to reduce environmental damage. Researching people’s meat and dairy consumption drivers is crucial in understanding behavioural change and encouraging alteration in meat and dairy consumption attitudes. Changing people’s attitudes around meat and dairy consumption is vital to reducing environmental degradation. Furthermore, moving towards a less meat- and dairy-intensive diet can be beneficial not only for the environment but also for personal values and ethics. This research aims to understand how some people in New Zealand perceive their attitudes around meat and dairy consumption and its implications for the environment and contribute to behavioural change. The qualitative research methodology was applied to understand four drivers that define people’s attitudes towards meat and dairy consumption. These drivers stem from domain-specific value- and ethics-based attitudes. Face-to-face interviews were conducted to collect in-depth data on how individuals perceive the environmental implications of meat and dairy consumption from faith-based, health-based, environmental ethics and animal welfare viewpoints. Implications of these drivers and their combinations to inform behavioural change are discussed, as well as how findings from this research can inform behavioural change. Further, this research aims to contribute to future educational campaigns that encourage sustainable choices for individuals whose values and ethics drive their attitudes around meat and dairy consumption.

Vegan for life initiation

This is an initiation that I started as a meet up group to gather people around abu dhabi who shares similar interest in spreading awareness on veganism and ways to adapt it in our lives to help the world in different ways which include the environment, health, animal & sustainability.

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